Brooke's Blog

  The Tortoise and The Hare When my husband's health began deteriorating last summer, I began preparing for having to support our daughter on my own. One of my biggest beliefs is to always hope for the best while preparing for the worst; That way you're equipped to handle both.  I had two options for my family's future 1.) Get a corporate-based retail job that would barely make ends meet, and risk being unable to keep this roof over Angel's head 'if' the worst did happen. Or 2.) Make something out of nothing and build a stable foundation that will greatly support us financially in the long run. It wasn't an easy decision to make.  Job stability, and pay regularity are excellent factors of a corporate-based job. But the unappreciative managerial chain of command that treats their employees like disposable diapers is not something I'm capable of dealing with long term. The best days of my employment history are when I owned my cleaning business. I'm th...

5-19-23  DeJa'Vu So here we go again... The weather is getting warmer, and Dan's place of employment is offering more overtime. He drives a dump truck hauling asphalt, dirt, stone, etc. It's an extremely stressful job with enormous responsibilities. People don't understand how hard it is to stop 100,000 pounds when they drive dangerously near these big trucks. It affects Dan's mental health in horrible ways, every day.  Dan has demanded that he is going to work 2 triple shifts every week until I get a job. We went through this same fucking shit last summer. He works all day Monday, into Monday night, and all-day Tuesday. He comes home to eat and sleep Tuesday evening, then on Wednesday, he works all day, all night, and into Thursday again. Dan worked this schedule all of the warm weather months of last year.  That amount of work put too much stress on Dan's body and caused his internal organs to not function properly; that's why he was in agonizing pain ever...

  There isn't enough time in the day to write all the things that I have to say. I'm definitely writing a book one day.  I'm almost finished writing about how Dan and I fell in love. I had hoped to publish it today, but instead I'm mopping up the dog piss that the Roomba spread all over my house! 🤣 Tomorrow's another day 😊

Smearing The Air Written by Brooke Durkin I feel a need to 'smear the air' in hopes that people will understand me better. In hopes of finding people who relate to the things that I've been through. In hopes of helping other victims of abuse find the strength to make it through another day. In hopes of becoming respected for my strengths, instead of being looked down on for my weaknesses. In hopes of showing everyone how incredible I am. I have been told that writing in a daily journal will help me feel better. I've avoided writing about my past because I don't want to think about the fucked-up shit that I went through every day. but I involuntarily think about that fucked up shit every day, so I might as well try writing to see if that helps. I need writing experience to further my career as a successful freelance writer, so I'll write about my experiences for now. This is a fair warning to everyone; I am a survivor of horrific childhood abuse and neglect. My b...