Addiction (Yellow Folder Anthology)


 Addiction

As I sit here today, I'm not sad about my past.
I feel proud because I made it at last!

For the first time in my life, everyone can see
the real me I have always wanted to be!

I am so strong because I am in control.
I have found the strength to just say no!

16 years of partying, I finally got a clue
of what that kind of lifestyle will do
to me, what it will do to you.

Jonesin for that high is a sad way of life.
Hiding the depression that stabs you like a knife.

Whatever your flavor will not stop the pain.
When the high is gone, the hurt is still the same.

Keeping my head numb so I don't have to deal
with the pain of my past and my future that is real.

Life is life and every day is a struggle.
But I no longer feed my addiction with a broke assed hustle.

From when my eyes open in the morning till they close at night,
I am busting my ass to live my life right.

Got my ducks in a row, doing everything I should.
Bursting with pride from living my life being good.

Yeah that's right, Brooke Carter is no longer a joke
no longer watching my dreams blow away with the smoke.

When you are straight you can finally understand
how easy it is to let addiction have the upper hand.

Take a step back and take it in it all.
See that getting high is only going to make you fall.

So make your choice, say no, and stand tall,
or be weak and get on your knees and crawl.

Every day is a choice to get high.
so stand up and deal or lay down and die.

When you get your fix is this the real you?
Are you living your life doing what you want to do?

I've been there before and you're living a lie.
Even though there are no tears, I can hear you cry.

No one can save you. You gotta do this yourself.
Even with no money, life offers bountiful wealth.

I'm not going to sugarcoat it, high or straight, life is hard.
It takes great strength and wisdom to not let down your guard.

The greatest strength ever to just say no,
the greatest wisdom to live it and see where your life is going to go.

So when you wake up tomorrow, make your choice;
Get high and be nobody, or speak out loud with a respectable voice.

Take a stand and show who you really are.
Take those baby steps to becoming a shooting star.

Understand that you are going to be just fine
not getting high one day at a time.

Believe these words that I am speaking to you,
the less you do, the less you will want to.

Dealing with yourself straight isn't going to be easy.
But whoever said it was going to be?

Is the life you want every day getting high?
Watching the life you want pass you by.

You and I both know that it's not!
It's never too late to give it another shot.

So reach down deep inside to find that strength
that it's going to take to go that extra length.

Overtime it will become so easy
to be who you want to be.
Trust me!

Written by Brooke Carter
Yellow Folder Anthology

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